i'm out of this shithole.
Going off blogging for awhile.
I'm sick of typing out life's moments. I want to talk.

merry christmas

for some reason after the malacca trip i've been dreaming, or having nightmares, every single night. that means 4 nightmares already. and for some reason as the night passes the dreams become more warped and scary. i don't know if its the malacca trip or that i am just plain excited about the holidays? sheesh the first night i dreamt that i went back to my primary school and had sunny side up eggs. for some unknown reason my school was packed and there were swarms of people queueing up to enter the school going in the direction of the general office yet we managed to find each other (i don't know why they were there too!) and sat down in the canteen and ate sunny side up eggs. (: the canteen stalls all looked like those from a hawker center and most of the food were overcooked and blackish so only eggs were edible. what does it even mean manzxzx such abstract dreams.

i don't exactly remember what the second and third dream was, but i knew last night i dreamt that i was in a concert (first row somemore aha i can even though the amplifiers or whatever the strange black boxes were on stage!) then some cat jumped on me and managed to sleep on me then its stripey fur turned red and black (same as my dad who was beside me!) then the next thing i remember was being at the top level of takashimaya babysitting some daughter of some tai tai!

and i dreamt that my sister was dead. she jumped out of the window i think.

fucking scary i tell you! you have no idea how happy i was to see her this morning. ): i love my sister alot you know! ):

my life's blissfully boring right now.
guess i'm just not great at talking about my life online unless its absolutely important, which never happens.

bought indigo nail polish. 37 bucks in total with the remover.
phone's confiscated just because i talked back to my mom. fucking piece of shit.
i have to get a box for M's present. don't know when to get it.
haven't started packing for malacca yet. not panicking still.
MSG 1.67. lousy compared to muggers. S1's MSG was 2.5
i love cirque du soleil i want to join them
first class tomorrow julian low julian low julian low!
his moobs can move you know.
stephen king is boring zzzzz
chem bio geog i think i'm the only one in 211 who chose that.
my internet is still not fixed.
adam lambert's new song is boring
so is justin bieber's.
i still love calvin harris
and david guetta and mika. bought all of their cds on saturday at gramaphone
gosh sephora is makeup haven.
banana republic shoes are awesome yet cheap.
marc jacobs pumps are 600 bucks
i want him to be my dad
actually david guetta is better. he's french
gosh i'm talking nonsense.

shut up brain.

i'm happy :D

and so the school year ends.

hard to believe that its already the holidays because i still feel stressed and i actually thought there was school today see i'm going mad mad mad. last day in twoeleven was almost perfect, that i didn't want to leave, i wish there were more school days so we would be able to spend the last remaining hours together (sounds like we're dying but hahahaah). Malacca trip in freaking two days time i am so goddam excited can't wait for first overseas trip with twoeleven!



taken just days ago (i forgot how long) at sentosa. so lovely i wish time would freeze forever and we would continue to live in this bliss. lots of photos still not uploaded yet because i can't download java and i have hundreds of photos so i wouldn't upload it in batches of five. stupid shirt tan at sentosa (and we weren't allow to wear fbts!) but it was worth it! waded around in the sand and water while some were hiding under the trees for shelter.



woah ultimate bimboness!

don't know how next year's gonna turn out like. T's confirmed in HP already.

After tonight, there'll be no coming home soon
No tears of regret, no smell of perfume
No more dancing feet, to the beats that go boom
While I watch the sunrise all alone in my room

Tonight there'll be no pouring rain
No eyes wide shut to your never ending game
After tonight there'll be no me and you
No distant memories past for me to hold on to

See everybody's working to hold on to what they know
So I guess I kept belive in my tonight will never go
Some spend a lifetime searchin trying to figure out
When hell stops and heaven begins

How soon is now?

AND I REALISE I DON'T POST HERE OFTEN!
THIS BLOG IS AS GOOD AS DEAD AHAHHAHAHAHAAHAH



its a necklace AND I WANT IT.

drama drama drama i have to admit it kind of gets boring at times but the i love the people working with me and its little things that make me want to stay in this class forever because, well, they are not so bitchy. (: heard that our entire class got caught by the LD because we weren't wearing white school shoes (and it all started with someone who was wearing pumps). hahahahah its so amusing that we were actually model class last year, i think we won't be this year because . said she was going to object violently if the teachers wanted to nominate us.

almost ten hours in the auditorium was bearable thanks to mel and nicole. managed to look at all the classes (dysfunctional ftw!!) and compare them with our class, Our class is different though, so it might give the audience an impression (dysfunctional ftw!!). YAY we'll be getting the third floor changing room and i dreamt that SM came and joined in our class photo, because the third floor changing rooms are "haunted"  -_-.

oh shit i have to get so many presents for so many people! ): especially jiaying (<3) whose birthday gift is belated by almost a month sorry kay! ): busy busy busy week ahead with drama and staying back in school until 6 etc whereas the others are already slacking their asses off. ): i hope they grow another ass.











yes ultimately i will miss my class.

exams are here and before you know its already more than halfway dead. bang bang!
languange arts and chinese are marginally okay. history made me feel suicidal. ):

so many things to do after the exams! i still have to get presents for everyone's belated birdday pressies and oh then there's the last day in class thing where everyone will shed some crocodile tears and pretend to be reluctant to leave the class but yes i know it there are some who cannot wait to go to their new classes. Can't wait for malacca trip!!

so many bitchings on facebook i feel kind of repulsed by it. some people trying to act bitchy when they are totally being extra. hello i feel like puking just talking about them but you know some people can act so sincere you can't bear to say "yeah i agree you suck". ): oh man three cheers for my soft heart. and now wow she's like sooooo close to us. how awesome.

p/s. i hope she sees this.

three day last mugging session of my year! then i'm going to die because the exam scripts will be coming back subject combi blah blah blah all the boring stuff ): and cca will be resuming after exam i don't know if i want it back.

procrastination. make it go away.
insomnia's coming back too. screw ttm

God bless. Turns out that M didn't want to see my parents in the end because our form teacher couldn't make it and so our classroom had to be locked. I would really die if my parents found out what i had done, and the endless talks about trust would seem intolerable given how stressed i actually am. So many people's hopes on me i just have to keep my head clear and stay focused.

PTM today but there wasn't really any food left for us students lurking around for any leftover delights. Saw many parents walking around with a mountain of food on their tiny paper plates. No wonder though, this is what singaporeans are really like. Maybe they think its a free dinner. And oh i drank two cups of orange squash and when i went home i went straight to do big business. Maybe its the yam cake. I'm not a big fan of yam lol.

What is my passion? Its really a question i have been thinking about really frequently. No, not that i am being particularly intellectual or something but its surprising how hard it is to prepare a three minute speech about your passion without making it sound hypocritical and fake. I want something from the bottom of my heart but i just can't seem to find it. MA's already well into half her speech but hmm i have one week to plan and craft my script. Hopefully i .... god now my trail of thought's been disrupted by my sister i can't remember what i wanted to write anymore.

Progress report is awesome. Something good finally. (:

Busy week just went past like that. Finished most of my homework on claire day (!!) and now i'm free for the weekend! Prolly going out with family after crabflower later and damn i want to meet pearl at takashimaya on sunday ahahah i haven't met my parents-in-law and neither has she. (: I haven't been to Ion yet but i heard it isn't that great: just hoards of people going to louis vuitton and all the other branded botiques that are for tai tais and nothing that suits me! D: but T told me that uniqlo is cheap and the clothes are for young people (like me hohoho) and so yeah maybe i'll visit the one in tampines.

Drama lesson was okay heehee i really look forward to our final piece! Except that we're really lagging alot behind the other classes.

I'm going out now for breakfast then to bugis for lunch with meian and then crab flower then i'm going out again for dinner zzzzz i'm really going to get fat ):

National day celebration wasn't the best but little things, such as taking awesome candid pictures of classmates using wing's camera (i actually forgot to bring mine. FML) and standing on tables made my national day happy! Just realised it was actually the first time i stood on a canteen table and how i love it even though the tables were full of footprints after that and i don't know how clean its going to be if you just wipe it using a wet cloth when you're gonna eat on it. Now i'm waiting for wing to upload all the photos (!!) and i can kope them HAH.

LEE JOEY PANGSEH-ED ME AND WENT FOR HER TRAINING HMPH so i had to wait for cy at lot one for a very long time being stared at girls from switzerland secondary. My balloon popped ): at the bus bay dammit i love my white balloon because i took it up the bus and protected it from all dangers ahhh now its all gone.

The funfair wasn't as interesting for old women like me but to my sister who's in P1 its awesome and she bought a hell lot of stuff while i had five coupons leftover (means its five bucks gone!) yeah i regretted changing so much but AH spare tyre was practically interrogating us i couldn't wait to get out of there as soon as possible. Bought a bear wearing a unity vest hahaha its so cute i named in Lawr only shuhui knows why but wait i think it suits my bear.

Felt really jealous looking at how bonded other classes were. Damn i just hope it won't be like that again or i'm not going back anymore cos i'll just go out with the others in the pillowcase uniform. Maybe something happened. Maybe nothing happened but its irritating to see that we can't even eat as a class anymore, much less spend the day together or even HANG OUT what the bloody fuck so disappointing. After we split up (no class spirit/ bonding at all wow) all was okay and i ended up seemingly enjoying myself again. Hanging out at someone else's house turns out to be okay other than how long we spent trying to figure out how to move the cursor. (:

This is a gift it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
And turns me to gold in the sunlight

How i love uk charts. :D and yes amandaS is finally a fan of gaspard whoahahahaha.

p/s. I love my icon.

Decided to create a new livejournal because my previous username was shit (i created it in a fit of teenage angst) so most likely when i blog i'll blog here yay!

Listening to my oasis albums over and over again have proved to be a great time killer for lazy saturdays when you just can't seem to drag yourself to complete homework or in general: something constructive. First two weeks have been lovely and slackish without cca but everything will be back to normal next week and i'd suddenly find myself having insufficient time. Yesterday i sms with multiple people and it nearly killed me. I end up forgeting the important people (yes shuhui thats you) and answering stupid people instead. I feel kind of bad when i ignore people (not people i hate) and ah this is going to go in circles if i don't stop now.

I realised Frozen by Madonna was prohibited from playing in public places or something like that because of copyright uses hmph i love that song but i haven't had time (yes no time even when i have lots of time) to hear the original one. Oh and i finally heard mad world by adam lambert (from start to the end) like omfg i'm so noob but it wasn't as nice as i had expected. I expected something EPIC. But i'm still curious what publicity stunts he would do for his new album.

Read ALOT of blogs about how much they love the korean stars and how obsessive they are getting over them! I mean yeah you have your own personal freedom to like whoever you like but postng their pictures and repeatedly saying they are hot+cute+SEXY (?!?!?!?!) is way out of line. I personally am a great fan of many people but i don't post their pictures all over my blog and say he's married to me or whatsoever. Now half the girls in school like korean boy bands (worse than bands cos they don't make their own music) and whats irritating is because many people are just following the trend and one day no one will like them because everyone will flock to adam lambert or tom cruise or some chinese dude and the whole circle will start once more.

YY showed me a blog yesterday and made me laugh (: thanks alot to her and i nearly wanted to flame the person also but i've also been spammed before and i can understand how ridculous spams and flaming really is. I guess the situation now really related to my drama class stuff (omfg forgot). I seriously hope this whole trend will die down and imake fun of people openly (bus stop ha) with original-minded people! Lol i only like one korean guy and thats KIM JONG IL.

If you don't know the guy you can just go and fag yourself google him up and see how much you have been missing out. At least he is a real man with a real dick unlike the others who look like teletubbies, neither guy nor girl. Lee Jun Ki isn't included because its simple: he's a movie star with extraordinary roles (aka gay) and i bet the other people will only want to act as prince charming to cheat girls out of their money. I LOVE KIM JONG IL.

I'm your biggest fan.
I'll follow you until you love me,
sx